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I'm the author of four books: Warrior SOS, The Work of Death, Together Forever, and Leaders Wanted. I'm in the doc film Please Remove Your Shoes. I've blogged for The Washington Times, and I write for Guns.com. I've worked for the high-profile U.S.-led Roadmap to Mideast Peace in Israel and Palestine. I've also worked as a SWAT team leader, a Federal Air Marshal and a sole-source training instructor on a classified contract with a U.S. government customer. My master's degree is in Military Studies and terrorism. I'm a former noncommissioned and commissioned Army officer, with service in Iraq. I've been Scuba diving and skydiving; I have trained with members of the U.S. Olympic Ski Team, and I'm an FBI-trained crisis negotiator. My interests lie in helping others and in strengthening America through inspiring moral courage, government fiscal responsibility and accountability, and maintaining principles that have made--and will continue to make--the United States of America a blessed and prosperous country. I'm a father of six, a husband, and a police officer. I reside in Utah, and I'm a Mormon. See also https://jeffreydenning.wordpress.com.

April 23, 2011

Triple limb amputee...




John Masson's Special Forces teammates returned from Afghanistan. He waited to get awarded the purple heart for losing both his legs and an arm after stepping on a land mine. He wanted to be with his team in Fort Bragg.

Warrior SOS received a note that John hugged his teammate and shared his love for them. Such love among brothers could most certainly make soft hearts of any experienced soldier.

Here's a video link to an amateur video of his homecoming from Walter Reed, fitted with another arm so he can use the wheel chair. http://usoonpatrol.org/archives/2011/01/28/john-masson-a-heros-homecoming

The photo above is from a Hawks game John was invited to. They incorrectly stated he was a double amputee, but regardless, what a wonderful thing the Black Hawks did to honor him. We hope there are many more hero "Thank You's" like that!

Here's the video from the sports center: http://video.blackhawks.nhl.com/videocenter/console?id=109820


To read amazing interviews with warriors, check out Warrior SOS: Interviews, Insights and Inspiration, the book on Amazon.com. Here's the link: http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00D3WO7VK

April 14, 2011

Interview with Founder and President of Warrior SOS, Jeffrey Denning

SOS contributor and former Marine Combat Correspondent (Vietnam), Bill Dahl, requested to do an interview with Warrior SOS president and founder, Jeffrey Denning. After several persistent requests, an interview finally occurred.



(Capt. Jeffrey Denning, Operation Iraqi Freedom -- the same picture ran on CNN headlines following an interview after his return from Iraq.)

Jeffrey Denning is a former undercover Federal Air Marshal, an Iraqi War Veteran, and a father of six children. In addition to Warrior SOS, he's a full time firearms training instructor at a nuclear power plant in northern Illinois.



SOS Contributor (Bill Dahl): Your motto: Train. Win. Recover. It is not only an incredible stake-in-the-ground for today's Warriors and their families, but also begs the question, "How did you get here?" Let's start with the Train part or beginning. Tell us about your initial military experience?

Answer (Denning): I enlisted in the military, not for the GI Bill or to see the world, but because I felt a very strong inclination to physically protect and help others. I had thoughts and feelings of protecting the presidents and leaders of the church I belong to—the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, a.k.a. the Mormons. I wanted to get experience to do that. Besides, military and in law enforcement seemed a good fit for who I felt I was and am.

One definition of vocation is "a strong impulse or inclination to follow a particular activity or career." Further definitions include "a divine call" or "a function or station in life to which one is called." (See dictionary.com) For me the military just seemed like the right way to go.

I'm reminded of the great Italian Renaissance sculptor, Michelangelo, who carved away magnificent statues from the huge blocks of marble taken from the quarry. He said, "In every block of marble I see a statue as plain as though it stood before me, shaped and perfect in attitude and action. I have only to hew away the rough walls that imprison the lovely apparition to reveal it to the other eyes as mine see it." (As quoted online in Squidoo.com in historical commentary on Michelangelo.)

With every magical moment of tactical training I endured, the block of marble surrounding me was slowly chipped away revealing who I was and who I am—who I was meant to be. With every stroke of training I received and with every tactical mission I conducted, more of my character was revealed.

There was something magical that happened for me personally when I grabbed a weapon in training and went running through a maze of buildings engaged in the greatest puzzle of human challenges ever—a lethal conundrum that could end in death and, on the corollary, lives saved.

To point, I was eventually the team leader on a full-time military police Special Reaction Team (SRT) or SWAT team. I was cross trained as a police sniper and FBI-trained crisis negotiator. I was awarded Top Gun at several police SWAT schools, trained with LAPD SWAT, as well as police tactical teams that responded to the Columbine High School incident just a couple of months after that unfortunate massacre.




My teammates were and are still my best friends in the whole world. The amount of trust between operators cannot be filled by any other person—not your spouse, not anyone-why? because you rely on them to kill to protect you, and you know they will. They'll do the right thing, and they have the right skill, knowledge and attitude to do the job superbly.



There's truly nothing else like lining up in a tight stack, getting ready to conduct a close-quarters battle (CQB) mission and knowing the guy behind you is fully capable and trustworthy to help save your life and help rescue a hostage or apprehend a dangerous barricaded suspect. There's nothing quite like the rush of being in a dangerous and potentially lethal moment like that. Skydiving doesn't equate to it, ski jumping, cliff jumping—nothing is quite like the team trust in the lethal game with potentially deadly consequences. You trust your team with your life, work and train as hard as you can, and leave the rest to God.


SOS: After active military service your career took many turns and was, in large part, defined by 9/11. Please tell us about your post 9/11 career and the loss of two close friends...and why SOS will create specific awards for them?


A: After getting out of the military I was a cop with Dallas Police Department. September 11th changed everything for me. I soon found myself living and working in Jerusalem as a contractor for the Department of State (DoS) Diplomatic Security Service (DSS). Soon thereafter the Federal Air Marshal Service (FAMS) offered me a position, which I took.



Now former Federal Air Marshals pictured on FAM range, Jeffrey Denning pictured on right.

While working as a FAM, I took a phone call November 13, 2005 from a friend and fellow officer who told me Brian Jackson had been shot and killed that morning. We were in the police academy together. Brian was one of the greatest, most helpful and happy guys I've ever met.



Fallen Dallas Police Officer, Brian Jackson

Brian's partner that night said of the last call they ever took together, "I asked him if he wanted to go help out and before I could get all the words out, he said, 'let's go help 'em.' "

One of the awards Warrior SOS will create is in Brian Jackson's behalf-a service award in his recognition for faithfully serving and helping others.

The second award would be in memory of Staff Sergeant John D. Linde. He and I were on SRT together as NCOs. Later, after I got out and received my commission in the Reserves, we were both in Iraq together at the same time. Johnny and three others in his humvee were killed when they drove over an IED.



The late Sgt. John Linde is pictured on the bottom row, second from the right, along with Denning and other members of the full time police SRT.

The energized Bronze Star winner from a firefight on a previous tour to Iraq was the epitome of an energetic warrior who could get things done.

Johnny was great to be around. His optimistic attitude was contagious and helped every situation be better. His outstanding energy and positive attitude changed every situation for the better. Each person could stand to have a little more of Johnny's notable characteristics. Subsequently, another award will be in his behalf—hope in the face of tragedy, happiness in the wake of sadness and sorrow, and a can-do attitude when facing impossible odds.



Staff Sergeant John Linde's funeral services at Arlington National Cemetery.

SOS: How did those experiences affect you?

A: Losing friends and brothers-in-arms is not something most people have experienced. It's especially tragic knowing that someone else caused their deaths. I shed a lot of tears in their behalf and I think about them every so often. Time is a great healer.

I especially feel for those closest to them—their family members. Johnny had a wife and children. Brian was a newlywed.

Sometimes, there is a horrific tragic pain caused by survivor's guilt. I really feel for those who think they could have done more to stop what happened. In the end, if God's will was to take them home; not heaven or hell could have stopped the inevitable. I hope those who feel any guilt that it will be swept away in the knowledge and hope of the resurrection—that all will live again someday.

I like what John the Revelator says of a future time, "And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain" (Revelation 21:4).


SOS: You've also served your country in a number of classified roles. In broader terms, what can you share about some of those experiences? For instance, I understand that you lost three teammate while serving as a DOS-DSS security contractor...what mission were you supporting and when was this?

A: Prior to Iraq I did work as a private security contract in Israel with Department of State. I was living in Jerusalem and escorting U.S. diplomats into the West Bank and Gaza Strip. That was not a classified position.

While in Isreal, on October 15, 2003, for the first time ever U.S. government personnel were attacked and killed by Palestinians in the Gaza Strip. I lost three co-workers and another one was seriously injured in roadside bomb attack.



Wreckage of a fully armored State Department Suburban in the Gaza Strip that took the lives of John Eric Branchizio, Mark T. Parson, John Martin Linde, Jr. (no relation to John Linde above) -- AP photo


http://www.mfa.gov.il/MFA/Terrorism-+Obstacle+to+Peace/Memorial/2003/John+Eric+Branchizio+-+John+Martin+Linde-+Jr+-+Mar.htm

It's quite surreal when one day you're laughing, talking and chatting about a variety of things and the next moment, your friends and coworkers are gone—blown to smithereens.

SOS: That is both surreal and tragic. But you moved ahead by accepting other classified roles. Is there anything you can share regarding them? At the very least, how did they shape you as a person?

A: I had a classified contract with a U.S. government customer prior to getting involuntarily mobilized to Iraq with the Army Reserves. That's what I can say. There's nothing like Hollywood stereotypical craziness mingled in there, so don't think I'm some heartless...whatever. There's great power in anonymity, but there's also a lot of incorrect speculation. That said, I also have signed a lot of paperwork saying I can't talk or write about it. 'Nuff said.

I had left the Federal Air Marshal Service and had started my own business with the aforementioned sole source contract as the main source of income. I was well on my way to the career I had always dreamed about. When I got called to go to war, I lost the contract. Nothing was the same after that. I lost the opportunity which, understandably, had to be filled.

I was unemployed. Being self-employed, I wasn't protected by law to return to my job once I came home from being deployed to Iraq. In addition to being away from home for over a year, missing my wife and children, and going through all the stresses or horrors of war, I also didn't have a job to come home to. Talk about stress. Besides, I didn't have an opportunity to go to job interviews or look for a job since I was tied up in the proverbial sandbox. I understand the stress of not having a job—or being self-employed but lacking income. I feel for those in current situations in the economic unraveling of our time.

Furthermore, Iraq was nothing like what I had imagined it would be. I wasn't able to do what I felt I could do best. There was nothing glamorous or exciting about my time in Iraq. Hollywood's war, of course, is exciting. That's all a façade and a lie. For me, being in Iraq was as if time stood still for a year. I even found myself regretting taking the occupational pathway I chose. I regretted my career choice, and I wanted to go home and be far away from anything to do with war.

SOS: What effect has this had on your family, On your beliefs or source of strength?

A: I leaned a lot on the personal religious convictions I had held since youth. Prayer is a great source of strength, a passport to peace. (For more reading on my personal experiences with prayer, click on the following link: http://mormon.org/me/2GXB/Jeffrey)

SOS: Have you suffered from PTSD or other stress-related conditions? What support have you sought?

A: I've seen some interesting things over the span of my profession, but I don't believe there'd be any classification of PTSD. However—and it is difficult for me to admit (or at least was) for several months and years—looking back I was stressed to the brink. It's easier for me to talk about lately, especially when courageous Veteran's have personally shared their own struggles and experiences with me personally and here with Warrior SOS. I witness their willingness to open up and I've slowly been able to do the same.

It has been said that 70 percent of war Veteran's experience stress, which can exhibit itself in depression, anxiety, anger, etc. I feel a whole lot better than I did while in Iraq and in the few months following my war time experience today, fortunately. I realize now, after learning of that statistic, I would definitely be classified in that 70 percentile. Admittedly, while in Iraq, I found myself crying uncontrollably and trying to hide it from others.

I remember one day in Iraq asking a stable and wonderful tenured NCO how he was doing. He broke out in uncontrollable tears. I had never heard someone cry in front of me like that before. A wonderful and mature man, he was on his third tour. He was also a newlywed. For him, this tour was different than all the rest.

Coming home was quite a culture shock too. Transitioning is hard. Our church happened to have a marriage enrichment class for couples at the time I was coming home. I asked my wife, if we could attend, hoping that would offer some kind of help. I'm the one who needed help. My wife was supportive and helpful.



Jeffrey Denning pictured with his wife while home during a two-week R&R from Iraq.

Sadly, some Veteran's don't have that support. In fact, one good soldier I was deployed with went home for his two weeks R&R and at the end, he said through tears (while we were in Iraq), that his wife told him the last day of his leave that she wanted a divorce.

Going though life without having someone to share it with would make things much harder. All marriages could use a little more love, kindness and selflessness. After all, family is what makes life great. Strong family life is the strength of any nation.

SOS: What worked in your recovery...and what didn't?

A: As mentioned, when I came home I recognized I needed help. I wanted to speak to someone, but I never did. It's not the macho thing to do. Initially, I felt I needed to speak to a mental health counselor or psychologist—just to try to get things right in my own head and in my own experience—but I never ended up meeting with anyone. It was just too strange to speak to a stranger or, in lieu to a counselor, someone who wouldn't be empathetic or understanding.

I continued to write in my journal and speak to other friends and veterans who understand. Eventually, I began feeling much better as time went on.

Time is a great healer. But sometimes without the right help, I've witnessed great friends have serious problems.

In all of this I learned a great and valuable lesson: I learned how to truly empathize with others. We don't understand how difficult something can be for others. We never know just how difficult and challenging some people's experiences are for them personally. I've become a better person for having faced these obstacles in my life. I've become a better husband and father.

SOS: For you and the effects you see with other warriors, what do you think is needed for screening, personal help and long-term family support?

A: I was speaking to a warrior not long ago who mentioned a novel idea. A former police officer who had been in a number of critical incidents, he recommended that fellow officers—peers—needed to be trained and have an additional, voluntary duty to help other officers. Police officers and military personnel alike are more inclined to speak to friends and co-workers, people they know, trust and work with, than to Department Psychologists or Combat Stress Clinical personnel. I really like that idea and believe that implementing something like that would go a long ways in helping identify, heal and resolve problems.

SOS: You've spent a lifetime studying and training for war, how has this defined you today?

A: Hollywood's definition of a warrior is quite different from reality. Additionally, who I am is different from many others.

I was reading the autobiography of my great-great-great grandfather, Parley P. Pratt yesterday and I found this gem. He wrote:

O Liberty!
O sound once delightful to every American ear!
O sacred privilege of American citizenship!...

Awake, O Americans!
Arise, O sons and daughters of freedom!

Restore...people to their rights, as citizens of a free republic. Down with tyranny and oppression, and rescue your liberties from the brink of ruin. Redeem your much injured country from the awful stain upon its honor...And let the news go forth to the wondering nations that [America] still is free.
(Autobiography of Parley P. Pratt, p. 194)

I love and sustain the Constitution. I've taken several oaths to support and defend that sacred document against all enemies, foreign and domestic. I take that oath seriously.

I also really like what King Arthur said in the musical play, Camelot. Said he, "Violence is not strength, and compassion is not weakness."

Like I said, Hollywood's definition of a warrior is quite different than what I envision a true warrior to be.

SOS: Is this when the idea for Warrior SOS came about? What did you see as the unserved need for warriors past and present?

A: The idea for Warrior SOS came about after my brother-in-law, a two time veteran of Iraq wars, was sitting in the hospital after having brain surgery to remove a large tumor. A father of six, who had gone into the hospital the week before with a headache, was now wondering if he'd be able to work and support his family, let alone survival from stage four brain cancer. Through his tears, I told him over the phone, "John, if there's anything-anything-I can do, I will." I knew he wouldn't ask for help, but I wanted to do something!

When I hung up the phone I told my wife I was going to start teaching firearms classes in order to raise money in his behalf.

About the same time I was contacted by the spouse of a good friend of mine who suffers from PTSD after the battle of Fallujah. He has hard times on occasion and I was summoned to reach out to him.

Within a day or so of that, a great, lifelong friend and current police officer, who was also with the Marine Corp in the first wave into Iraq, reached out to me...an SOS.

These and the summation of multiple other experiences made me want to start an organization to help warriors and their family members. Hence the idea for Warrior SOS was born.

There is a constant and continual need for training—moral, ethical, psychological and, of course, tactical. There is and will forever be an on-going need for helping warriors and family members as society gets worse and war continues unabated.

SOS: What is your future vision for SOS? How do you want others to become involved?

A: Someone once shared a catchy poem that goes like this:

If you're blue
Find something to do
For someone who
Is sadder than you.


While more things will certainly come along in the near future that may add direction and ideas for Warrior SOS, the main focus of Warrior SOS is to bless, heal and help. Service is at the heart of our mission.

We encourage all people everywhere to look for opportunities to serve and help others, whether it's lending a listening ear, taking time to say "thank you," or extending a hand of friendship and forgiveness.

Of course, we're always looking for people willing to open up and share their experiences publicly, although that can be hard.

I've also made a personal pledge to help out John Masson, a friend of a friend, who lost both legs and his arm in Afghanistan after stepping on a land mine. I plan on doing all I can to help out that great Special Forces operator.



Operation Enduring Freedom Veteran and triple amputee, John Masson

Warrior SOS is also hoping to get sponsorships in addition to those companies that have already helped us out, and whom we express our deepest appreciation.

Finally, we need help spreading the word, so to speak. And the word is: Watch for the SOS sign. The SOS signal may be subtle or blatant, but there are people all around us everyday who are suffering and in need. Watch for signs of suffering and need, and then help others out. As civil, decent human beings it is our inherent duty to run to their aid and offer help, healing and love. Doing so will bless them and bless our lives as well. Serving will make our society better. We could save a life, gain a friend and win another battle, day by day.

SOS: As a Vietnam veteran I am deeply impressed with what you have taken on as a personal mission to support warriors of all conflicts and those who serve in law enforcement roles today. Please accept a very sincere "Thank You" for your continued commitment to serving the public and your country.

A: Thank you, for going out of your way to do this interview. I hope it will help a great number of people.


To read amazing interviews with warriors, check out Warrior SOS: Interviews, Insights and Inspiration, the book on Amazon.com. Here's the link: http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00D3WO7VK

April 12, 2011

Pictures from Warrior SOS firearms training



Author looking over notes while instructing a combat handgun course in Utah last November.



Overseeing a student during a tactical exercise.


To read amazing interviews with warriors, check out Warrior SOS: Interviews, Insights and Inspiration, the book on Amazon.com. Here's the link: http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00D3WO7VK

March 31, 2011

SOS Raffle -- Announcing WINNERS

UPDATE: Lori passed away in June 2011. Our prayers are with Mike and their children. She's in a better place now.

A SOS raffle was held in order to help raise some money for warrior Mike and his wife Lori, who's battling cancer. Thanks to many generous people, including those vendors as well as those who purchased and/or helped sell tickets, Warrior SOS is able to give Mike and Lori a healthy amount of money.

But more than that, we want Mike and Lori to know we love them and they're always in our prayers. That's more important and more powerful than anything money can buy!

...Next prize, Crossbow ESS glasses (2 pair in one durable case). They work excellent on the range or during operations. The Crossbow doesn't dig into the side of your head like other glasses do when wearing ear protection. As a firearms instructor these are the glasses I use every time I'm at the range. They're fantastic.



ESS Crossbow eyewear comes with two glasses and a case.


http://www.esseyepro.com/Crossbow_detail.html

Also, the CDI MAX.



ESS CDI Max glasses come with interchangeable clear/dark lenses and a case.


While in Iraq, I personally witnessed some ESS glasses that saved a soldier's eyesight after an IED blast! They work. Period.

Seeing is a tactical requirement. Take care of your eyes. Check out http://www.esseyepro.com/.

Original SWAT boots are next.

My Original SWAT boots outlasted several other pair of boots, including tactical training, tactical operations and a tour to Iraq. They outlasted other competitors, which, frankly, surprised me since the other brand was well-known.

Original SWAT boots lasted me three years and a tour in the sand box.
The "other" brand lasted six months before the souls tore away from the boot.

As a former SWAT operator, security contractor overseas, military man (enlisted and commissioned officer), and a Federal Law Enforcement officer, I've worn every kind of tactical boot imaginable. Original SWAT offers durable, comfortable, stylish, good-to-go boots.



Original SWAT boot comes in either black or desert tan.

Brownells.com is the World's Largest Supplier of Gun Parts, Gunsmith Tools & Shooting Accessories. They have about everything any gun enthusiast would want or need. Their customer service is top notch, and their prices are spot on. It's easy to say you're on target when you shop at Brownells.com.

When it comes to cleaning and preserving the tools that will save your life -- firearms and edged weapons -- you must get the right product...the best product. I use Sentry Solutions on all my personal firearms.

Even and especially in my home emergency Go-Bag (a.k.a. 72-hour kit, Grab Bag, E&E bag, etc) I carry knives and guns. Before I got some Tuf-Cloth, the knife I kept in my Go-Bag for several years started developing rust spots. With Tuf-Cloth, rust spots will never be a problem...ever!



Sentry Solutions has kindly donated 20 prizes. Tuf-Cloth.

The lint-free replacement for oil and silicone rags. Tuf-Cloth applies a water-displacing, micro-bonded crystal barrier to protect against rust, friction, and wear in any condition, for all of your firearms and metal equipment. Tuf-Cloth provides superior protection compared to any oil or silicone based products against moisture; including extreme conditions and environments. Tuf-Cloth’s 12” by 12” lint-free fabric makes oil rags and disposable wipes obsolete. Tuf-Cloth can be used again and again, literally hundreds of uses, just return Tuf-Cloth to the vapor barrier pouch and re-seal it. If your Tuf-Cloth does dry out, simply restore it to its previous condition by using a touch of Tuf-Glide™; a partner for Tuf-Cloth using the same quick-drying mineral spirit carrier. With one simple swipe of the Tuf-Cloth, your outdoor gear is properly lubricated and protected from rust. Issued and used by more than 60,000 troops to replace CLP during operations in Afghanistan and Iraq.

Check out http://www.sentrysolutions.com/ for all your firearms and edged weapons cleaning and lubing needs.

Thank you all for participating. More important than the prizes is the fact that a Warrior has been helped from all the generous donations.

Please keep Mike and Lori in your prayers.

March 16, 2011

Mansions of the Lord - Where no mothers cry and no children weep

I received the following from a dear friend:
Hi Jeff,
I was surfing around looking for stuff for my upcoming Vietnam reunion and tripped over this website and more importantly this hymn sung by the West Point Choir. Turn up your speakers and listen. It gives me goose bumps it's so beautiful.


http://www.ichiban1.org/html/bnkia.htm#

After surfing the web a bit and listening to the song over and over and over, I decided to post it here on the Warrior SOS blog. Enjoy!

God bless all those who've served or are serving.



"The Mansions of the Lord"

To fallen soldiers let us sing
where no rockets fly nor bullets wing
Our broken brothers let us bring
to the mansions of the Lord

No more bleeding no more fight
No prayers pleading through the night
just divine embrace, eternal light
in the mansions of the Lord

Where no mothers cry and no children weep
We will stand and guard tho the angels sleep
All through the ages safely keep the mansions of the Lord

"Mansions of the Lord" is a hymn written by Randall Wallace and set to the music of Nick Glennie-Smith.
"Mansions" was originally written for the 2002 film We Were Soldiers, and was performed by the United States Military Academy Glee Club.



I'm reminded of a Bible verse in the book of Revelations (21:4):

"And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain."


To read amazing interviews with warriors, check out Warrior SOS: Interviews, Insights and Inspiration, the book on Amazon.com. Here's the link: http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00D3WO7VK

February 20, 2011

Faith, Leadership, War and Abraham Lincoln


The following is a letter penned to an experienced warrior in Afghanistan, who's been struggling. In his letter, which I'm not including, he mentions his struggles and need for faith, God and family in order to carry on and get through this terrible deployment. I thought the letter in reply worth repeating for all to read.


I thought of what I could write to you after reading your tear-jerking note below. I thought of the hell I experienced in Iraq. I thought to write something short, but powerful, that might let you know I love you and can understand, in some small way, the hard times you currently suffer. The "short, but powerful" requirement brought to mind the Gettysburg address. Lincoln gave one of the shortest speeches ever. Another man spoke before him for a very long time, but neither his name nor the memory of his words lives on through the annals of history.

Lincoln, a consummate man of God who prayed and studied the Bible regularly, knew that he, as the President of the United States, wasn't ultimately in charge. He knew that God was the ultimate Ruler of the universe, and the inevitable Founder of the United States, upon which He (Heavenly Father) could destroy or save at His almighty will and pleasure. Fortunately, Abraham Lincoln, I'm sure, recognized his role in bringing to pass good things. He prayed fervently and worked hard in his role as leader.

Lincoln will long be remembered as one of the greatest presidents in history. Interestingly, years ago while working as an air marshal, I remember seeing a periodical at one of the magazine stands in the airport that labeled Lincoln as a privately depressed and distressed man. To me, I thought it was a cruel observation and study against such a great man among men. It was pointing out the flaws of someone beyond the grave, and I saw no need for it. But, my experiences in Iraq helped me to see things a little differently--not that we should point out flaws, but I understood more about the loneliness of leadership. In that way, perhaps in some small measure, I understood more about Lincoln's character and behavior--a true paragon among men.

I'm including Lincoln's words spoken in the melancholy fields of Gettysburg, Pennsylvania, where I too have stood and wept silently at man's inhumanity to man.

You are always in my thoughts and prayers, and I hope one day we can greet each other with a hug and talk for a long while.

Now, the iconic Abraham Lincoln:

Four score and seven years ago our fathers brought forth, upon this continent, a new nation, conceived in Liberty, and dedicated to the proposition that all men are created equal.
Now we are engaged in a great civil war, testing whether that nation, or any nation so conceived, and so dedicated, can long endure. We are met here on a great battlefield of that war. We have come to dedicate a portion of it as a final resting place for those who here gave their lives that that nation might live. It is altogether fitting and proper that we should do this.

But in a larger sense we can not dedicate - we can not consecrate - we can not hallow this ground. The brave men, living and dead, who struggled, here, have consecrated it far above our poor power to add or detract. The world will little note, nor long remember, what we say here, but can never forget what they did here.

It is for us, the living, rather to be dedicated here to the unfinished work which they have, thus far, so nobly carried on. It is rather for us to be here dedicated to the great task remaining before us - that from these honored dead we take increased devotion to that cause for which they here gave the last full measure of devotion - that we here highly resolve that these dead shall not have died in vain; that this nation shall have a new birth of freedom; and that this government of the people, by the people, for the people, shall not perish from the earth.



To read amazing interviews with warriors, check out Warrior SOS: Interviews, Insights and Inspiration, the book on Amazon.com. Here's the link: http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00D3WO7VK

February 10, 2011

Vietnam Combat Photographer -- 8 pictures that have lasted a lifetime













Bill Dahl
joined the Marines 2 days after turning 18 in 1967. Through luck, chutzpah and perhaps divine intervention he was later selected for Defense Information School journalism training prior to his first 18-month overseas tour with Armed Forces Radio & Television (AFRTS) based out of Okinawa. In late 1969 he attended Combat Correspondent’s School at Camp Pendleton, CA before shipping off to Vietnam for a voluntary 12-month tour extension. By now a Sergeant, Bill served as a Combat Correspondent/Photographer and NCO in charge of a small press unit based north of DaNang. His assignments took him throughout northern I Corps primarily covering small units.

His Marine training, leadership, and overseas experiences laid a foundation for a good life. Following his 4-year enlistment Bill completed college earning a BS degree from Arizona State University in Broadcast Journalism/Mass Communications. After progressing through news, programming and production roles with various TV network affiliates Bill was recruited into the corporate world where he managed global customer events, marketing and testimonial programs. He became a founder of a marketing communications agency later rising to President & CEO. Bill now runs a New England-based business and marketing consulting practice serving global corporations and startup ventures. You can view his public profile at: http://www.linkedin.com/in/billdahl

But when all is said and done, Bill considers helping nurture his two children to become socially responsible adults his greatest achievement.

And he is now finally addressing decades-old PTSD issues with the support of what he considers very caring, respectful VA personnel and resources.


Warrior SOS
: Thank you so much for agreeing to this interview. It takes a lot of courage to open up and talk/write about your feelings, observations, impressions and experiences with others -- inevitably an entire virtual world. I will ask you a series of very personal questions. The hope is that that these questions help with healing, and not have the opposite affect. Let's begin...

You've had a lot of combat experiences in Vietnam that have shaped who you are today. Recently you were reminded about some pictures you took as a combat photographer on a mission that created memories for you that have lasted a lifetime. Will you tell us about it?

Dahl: This subject came up in a recent VA counseling session. It is my own personal "movie trailer" I now call "8 Frames" that is one of those "intrusive thoughts" associated with PTSD.

In a nutshell, as a combat correspondent I was on a self-assignment to one of the small CAP (Combined Action Platoons - a Marine squad that trains a platoon of PFs, South Vietnamese Popular Forces...sort of local militias - to defend their local hamlets. These are small units, with little backup, and generally very remote. Bunkers, fighting holes to call home, sometimes a small hootch.

Long story short...following a morning patrol we were back inside the perimeter when a loud but muffled explosion signaled a large, tripped booby-trap (now called IEDs).

Knowing that there were PFs supposed to be defending farmers in their fields we grabbed our 16's and ammo pouches. I also grabbed one of my cameras. Since we just got back from patrol I hadn't reloaded it (the camera) yet, and I knew I only had 8 frames remaining.

Our quick reaction broke up a VC attempt to set an ambush in place. The explosion was from a 155 round tripped by PFs in a gaggle as they goofed-off in a treeline (A real cluster-fu**, stringing hammocks, smoking, whatever)--an unfortunate pattern that the VC had noticed.

The air was thick with a greasy, metallic-smelling mist representing several vaporized PFs. Another half-dozen or so were in pretty bad shape.

I won't complete this story now, but I'm attaching the '8 frames' I shot over the next 15-20 minutes in between trying to help patch up some of these idiots while 'fellow' PFs were trying to steal their boots & valuables.

Unfortunately I see this 'movie trailer' play out frequently in nightmares through the perspective of my camera's viewfinder. It is not a 'play-on-demand' sequence I willingly call up.

Just 8 frames, but long enough to last a lifetime.


Warrior SOS: I know I'd love to hear the entire story, and I'm sure others would too. The entire event sounds fascinating, and it surely left some lasting impressions on your mind and psyche...as well as some amazing photos. Perhaps you'd be up to writing out the whole story of 8 Frames for a future article?

Dahl: Yes, I will, but it is difficult to deal with the whole thing now.

Warrior SOS
: Let's switch gears a little. There's a social stigma with getting help after suffering emotionally. Why do you think that is?

Dahl: Old school was to simply "suck it up" and move on. I think until recently there was a stigma attached to having emotional issues about past events.

Warrior SOS
: Denial seems to be a driving factor behind those not getting help. Is it because warriors don't recognize they have problems or is it something deeper?

Dahl: There is certainly a denial factor that's coupled to the old school stigma. And if you are around a bunch of other Alpha-type individuals you don't want to appear "weak"-there can be a substantial peer pressure effect.

I think warriors--especially OEF/OIF vets--are increasingly more aware that they may have issues. Society, family and friends are all more aware and informed today.

Warrior SOS
: Obviously there has been several years of memories etched in veteran's minds. What happens when Veteran's try to tough it out alone? Are there deeper problems that would help be alleviated with professional help?

Dahl: Toughing it out is still the perceived way to go. Traumatic memories can get pushed back but can lurk through years of denial vs. healing. I was"old school" and got on with my life rushing ahead while trying not to deal with the past. It eventually caught up. I was so embarrassed to admit I was having more unsolicited flashbacks that were causing sleepless nights. Especially as the economy took a toll on my finances and career. Nights turned into days.

Confronting old demons--actually talking through not just the cause but the effect of what was going on--is making a difference.

Warrior SOS
: Many Veterans come back from war much different than when they left. People change. How can friends and family members help Veteran's adjust after their war experience—initially after deployment and long term, several years after war?

Dahl: First, friends and family should read informative articles or talk to other vets or specialists in advance. Being able to offer discreet support without calling much attention or creating additional drama will allow the Vet to eventually open up and seek help or just vent without fear of being judged.

Warrior SOS: How can supportive people help? Naturally, Veteran's may choose to hold in their experiences. This is especially true between men, who've been in combat, and their wives. Why is there such an imbalance and how can someone overcome this, or should he?

Dahl: It goes back to being informed and a steady, non-judgemental source of support. Spouses
have to understand that they simply will not be able to fully appreciate the tremendous strain of months of boredom punctuated by intense life and death scenarios where sometimes even good decisions will cost lives, but perhaps just fewer lives or serious injuries. Then the second-guessing of those decisions with the rear-view mirror of time.

Recently I was talking with an OIF vet and his wife blamed everything on his PTSD--when they really had other broader issues common to most marriages. Frankly I don't know if spouses could absorb total honesty about darker moments and not have that affect their relationship. I guess there is a delicate balance and perhaps this subject is best left up to professional counselors.

Warrior SOS
: When you and many others came home from Vietnam the socio-political greeting was much different than it is today. What were the ramifications? Do you believe that hindered the healing process?

Dahl: From other Vietnam vets and speaking from my own experience, we had a very different homecoming experience. Being called a baby-killer in airports and public places was no urban myth. It happened often to me personally. Once I had a beautiful woman first smile at a distance and then spit on me in my dress blues as she got closer to me on the street. From what seemed to be a budding interest to absolute humiliation happened in just 10 seconds or so.

The overall result of our "welcome back" was that our pride in honorable service was tarnished by a sense of worthless sacrifice when it seemed that the country we served judged us, not the political decisions. It hurts so much because we cared so much.

The country was polarized and associated individuals with the political conduct of the war. The vast majority of us in Vietnam conducted ourselves honorably and saved lives as well. But that was seldom considered. I see a huge difference in how today's returning warriors are publicly treated--thank God for that.

But even with a better, more supportive social environment that doesn't mean combat vets can shake off their traumatic experiences. They are seared into your mind and you are forever changed. That doesn't mean you can't be highly successful, a good spouse and citizen--it just means that you have to find ways to cope with what is now almost an alter ego.

Warrior SOS: Today PTSD has a greater emphasis than it did in decades ago. In fact, Veteran's are now required to see a counselor briefly for a post-deployment screening. Although one OIF veteran recently told me that he felt like he was being herded like cattle in that process. Others are not comfortable with a complete stranger and are unwilling or unlikely to "open up." Do you think this process would have helped in your time and situation?

Dahl: A good process would have been a huge help. But a "cattle chute" approach could do more harm than good in that the Vet may be reluctant to seek future help. However, I've found that the VA Medical Centers and Vet Centers are really taking a very respectful, supportive approach. Perhaps that approach needs to be embraced more by the services. The very private, individual approach builds trust. A "required" rushed screening doesn't build the trust and rapport needed to actually guage the level of need.

Warrior SOS: Will you explain flashbacks?

Dahl: They are intrusive, unsolicited thoughts that immediately put you back among the sights, sounds and smells of traumatic moments you've tried to forget. I personally find times of other stress as in the family or with finances can be a trigger. Or a movie, image, phrase or even a look can drag you back decades even though you haven't been bothered previously by the same exposure. Sounds weird but the mind operates on many levels and sometimes it makes a new connection to an old demon.

Warrior SOS: Tears and emotional discomfort is something many warriors experience. Surely, at times this distress is worse than others. Is there ever a numbing period? Can you give us some insight, either way?

Dahl: It's difficult to bundle in a tidy package. I've learned to recognize some possible triggers and just mentally steel myself to ride it out. Works most of the time. It isn't denial at that point, just recognition and sometimes I can deal with it at a better time later or just get beyond the trigger. Maybe that's my numbing process--trigger recognition = better coping...at least for me.

Warrior SOS: Alcohol, anger, fights, high risk or even illegal activities, difficulty in relationships is commonplace with returning veterans. Generally speaking, how can warriors do things that will benefit and help them in the long run?

Dahl: Perhaps treat their return to mainstream society as they did with issues or missions in the service. Confront the reality, recognize the potential risks, seek support and/or map out strategies and tactics that have you focusing on positive outcomes, not living destructive moments. Perhaps even write down potential or real issues and map out steps...like a "shortimers calendar" to keep focus on making it happen.

Warrior SOS: How do wholesome and worthwhile goals help in the healing process?

Dahl
: Goals drove my post-service success in getting my college degree, career track, starting and raising a family. Did pretty well in all of the above...but probably stayed too long in denial until some Vietnam-related intrusions became undeniable. Positive goals, from my perspective, are the best way to move ahead...along with embracing an early healing process.

Warrior SOS: What other advice or insight would you be willing to share that would help bless the lives of other veterans?

Dahl: Drop "Old School" stigmas about sucking it up. If you are a decent, caring human you can't help but be affected by your experiences. That is especially true if you have physical scars as well. Set and keep goals. The quicker you move from denial to healing offers the best future for you and everyone around you.

Warrior SOS
: Bill Dahl, thank you so very much for sharing your heartfelt pains and helpful advice. I am absolutely confident your courage in doing this interview will help many, many others in reexamining their lives and enabling others to speak up, speak out and get much needed help where help and healing is greatly needed. Thank you for helping Warrior SOS further accomplish its mission.

Collectively with others, we hope that you will find great success in all your pursuits and livelihood and that peace and comfort from painful memories will soon be a part of your history and not your present or future thoughts.


To read this and other amazing interviews, check out Warrior SOS, the book on Amazon.com. http://www.amazon.com/Warrior-SOS-Military-Veterans-Emotional/dp/1462117341/

NOTE: The 8 pictures are in the book!

For Warrior SOS book endorsements from Glenn Beck, Lt. Col. Dave Grossman and others, check out the author's link: http://www.jeffrey-denning.com/books/warrior-sos/ 

January 12, 2011

Super-cops, Super-warriors & Kryptonite





Brian A. Kinnaird, Ph.D
. is an internationally known author, trainer, and educator in the fields of criminal justice and social psychology. He is a former commissioned law enforcement officer and has spent the last decade as a university professor and trainer in Kansas and Texas. Brian is the author of three books and frequently writes columns and articles on heroism and warrior hood. All of his work and books at www.briankinnaird.com.


Warrior SOS: Warrior SOS: Welcome Dr. Brian Kinnaird. Thank you so much for agreeing to do this interview. Let's begin.

What is your book Parallel Universe: A Theatre for Heroism: Cops and Superheroes all about?

Kinnaird: At first glance, what in the heck is a 'parallel universe' and how do cops and superheroes have anything to do with each other? In our fantasy world, a parallel universe is a separate, self-contained reality co-existing with our own. It's like a fictional universe existing within our real universe. Superman protects Metropolis and Batman watches Gotham City while law enforcement officers do the same in our own cities. Their fictional world resonates into our real world and we, as cops, pick up on that and use the information from their world to guide our own behaviors: ethically, morally, legally—heroically!

There are a couple of themes going on in the book. One is the direct and symbolic parallels between superheroes and that of our modern day law enforcers: dual identities, powers, origin stories, costumes, archenemies, trademark weapons, headquarters, a supporting cast of characters and that colossal struggle between good and evil. The second theme is about living an authentic life and finding our heroic impulse. What makes a cop, a fireman, or soldier leave their house every day with tights and a cape? There is something remarkably healing and protective about remembering the spiritual ambitions that led you to your vocation and superheroes often spark that realization that we are something 'more' than the ordinary man or woman. The third theme is about looking at your profession and life artistically rather than from a dogmatic, mechanical sense. Knowing yourself means coming to know the patterns rooted in symbols from various relationships throughout your life. As a cop or soldier-warrior, you've probably always been a "helper" or leader in your life—Boy or Girl Scouts, leadership positions in school or athletic activities, excelling in your studies or just working on projects from focus to finish. You probably also had support by family, friends, and mentors who guided you and were leaders of their own generation or era.

Warrior SOS: This concept of viewing a warrior life from an entirely new perspective is something quite fascinating. What is this about model all about? Why did you choose to write a book in this unique and cleaver way?

Kinnaird: Go to your bookstore and look at where the people are: the self-help and psychology section. For some reason, people insist on dropping dollars for every new Zig Ziglar, Wayne Dyer or Dr. Phil book on how to live the "best life." They pick up the Tao Te Ching and Deepak Chopra to find out how to purposefully engage their world. Trust me, I've been in those book aisles, but I never found what I was looking for. I’ve read the books, but they seemed to apply to average people. I was a cop and didn’t feel average. What does authenticity look like to people who chase bad guys at 100 MPH, hold the hand of a dying car crash victim, charge into raging waters to save a motorist swept away by a flash flood, or run towards the sound of the guns instead of away? I remember stepping out of one of those aisles one day and caught a glimpse of a comic book on a spinning rack where they were displayed. On the cover was a small boy with one black eye and a tear in the other. With sadness, but hope, he was looking up at a dark-haired man who we only see from behind. Looming over this child was a man with a red cape and a yellow "S" on the back of it. The answer was right in front of me!

This Superman comic book story was about an abused family abandoned by friends out of fear and cast away by a broken criminal justice and social service system. There's a lot broken today. Like all warriors—cop or soldier—I came into my profession with a relatively stamped set of moral conditions that shaped me as a young man. My first year on the job I saw everything: drugs, suicide, murder, rape, sexual and domestic abuse—all demons hidden behind closed doors in a facade of neighborly interaction. When the gap widened between the world I worked in and the world presented to me by my upbringing, I would resort to superhero themes. The idea of goodness and justice afforded to me by my youthful heroes like Captain America, Superman, or Batman provided a world where morality worked like it was supposed to. It gave me a spiritual renewal to tackle the ugliness that was my new stomping ground. It also sparked a nostalgic feeling of what was once good, comfortable, and safe. Every Friday evening I could count on Lou Ferrigno ripping out of his shirt and throwing around the bad guys. There was a magic I had favored as a youth and, as I started researching the genre, I found that there is a psychological power in comic book superheroes that appeal to us. It was no longer the Hulk yanking the bad guy by the shirt collar anymore—it was ME! Only in recent decades have superheroes been given scholarly and existential study where we can use them as role models and not feel silly about it.

Consider that traditional storytelling has pretty much died out in our Western society. I rarely hear of Pecos Bill, John Henry, or heroes of the Greco-Roman period. Even heroes of the Bible have dwindled through our myriad of technology and laws that have replaced the value of religious culture with math and reading assessments or socio-political agendas that seek to snuff out even prayer and attendance at a church, mosque or synagogue. Legends and folklore are relevant and purposeful classics, but not everyone has been exposed to such readings or study and follow a specific religion. Despite socio-economic status, education, religion, politics, language, or ethnicity, go anywhere in the world and present Superman’s iconic chest sign and they will know what it is and, more importantly, what it symbolizes.

My argument is that superheroes are the strongest and most potent mythological translators of heroism in the modern age. It started years ago with a printed page and became a cultural phenomenon: publishing, television, movies, DVDs, toys, and video games. Billions of dollars that could balance our nation’s budget, fund wars, end wars, and bring food to the hungry are spent towards fantasy. Despite our real world, it’s the fictional world that brings us a sense of order and meaning. In our warriorhood, superheroes are a symbolic expression of that order. Terrorism, violence, a poor economy, a loss of faith and hope, and moral relativity now call us to lead our generations into greatness. Superheroes provide a symbolic solution in order to thrive and function to achieve that greatness.

Warrior SOS: This kind of interwoven philosophy of equating a cop with a superhero has never been done in quite this way before—until your book, right? Why is this book, in particular, important for law enforcement and their families?

Kinnaird: This cop-superhero mesh has never been done before. Of course we have classics where police officers were superheroes (or vice versa): Barry Allen was a police forensic scientist who was a victim of a laboratory accident and became The Flash, the Green Lantern was an intergalactic policeman, and even The Lone Ranger (a human, masked crusader) was a Texas Ranger. In our profession, the closest reference we have to comparative greatness is the religious figure of St. Michael the Archangel who exists as the patron saint and protector of law enforcement and soldiers. My friend and colleague, Lt. Col. Dave Grossman, has spent the latter part of his career training officers using the history of the knights as role models for fostering the warrior spirit and leading our generations to greatness. The problem is that when I first met Dave and attended his seminars and bought his CDs, I had to go and research wars and warriors of centuries past. I didn’t have an immediate neuro-association to men with armor who wielded swords, but I did know that Wolverine of the X-Men had razor-sharp, titanium alloy claws that sprung out of his hands when he needed to.

As the G.I. or Silent Generation has passed away, the Baby Boomer Generation is aging and retiring. We are left with Generation X and Millennials. Our generations haven’t had to study warriorhood and history classes are almost non-existent in secondary education. Many are only electives at college now. Some of the very young officers never served in the military like our fathers and grandfathers, but have instead grown up playing video games about war. We have a 40 and under crowd who are on the streets or becoming administrators. That same crowd has also become the major writers, directors, and producers of our childhood heroes who were prominent during our youth from live-action TV series and cartoons. Superheroes are a theatrical and dynamic people. Those heroes have resurged in the last decade with major motion pictures and toys. While I go to pick up the 1970s Incredible Hulk boxed-set, my son picks up the action figure from the last movie. We have to fill the gap with contemporary and relevant benchmarks. Superheroes “are” the here-and-now and they show no signs of going away.

For law enforcement officers, superheroes teach us that we can and should risk our lives on an impossible cause. In law enforcement there is no completion, proper ending or salvation. There is only a reappraisal of our choice to protect and serve and that has to be enough. A Persian poet once wrote, “Even after all its fire and warmth, the Sun never said to the Earth, ‘You owe me.’” That’s the love in the law enforcement profession and we see it play out in every comic book, television, or movie. Heroes decline all compensation and it’s great to see that reinforced through superhero behavior because it otherwise waters-down what we are all about as protectors of the peace.

A last notion about the importance of superheroes for law enforcement is the anti-hero (or what I call “A Cop’s Kryptonite”). The label of hero or villain is fleshed out by moral choices made under pressure. A utilitarian philosophy says do what’s best for the greater good. For example, kill one; save a thousand. How many times have we arrested the same person who has hurt others over and over? They know we won’t hurt them and the justice system will slap them on the wrist. Likewise, how many times has the Batman allowed the Joker to “get away”? So much so that it is a long-running Jingle Bells tune sung by children since the 1960s. The bad guys know our good habits and they kill and take hostages to prove their theory and make good on their promises. A deontological philosophy questions whether or not we can be justified in our actions by the goodness of purpose. Instead, it is argued that the end never justifies the means—the means must be justified on its own merit. This is the classic struggle played out in our theatres and on the streets. As a result, we’ve seen the rise of anti-heroes such as Dirty Harry or anti-superheroes such as Wolverine, The Punisher, Daredevil, Elektra, and others who seek out their own vigilante-style justice in response to moral relativity, confusion and frustration.

Warrior SOS: Let's talk for a bit on Kryptonite. A lot of police officers are military veterans. Many officers also serve in the military Reserves or National Guard. This has put a strain on police departments since 9/11. Whether cops have military experience or not, many of them have been in troubling situations, either overseas or on a beat—or both! What are some examples of these Cop's Kryptonite and how can the warrior guard against them?

There’s a great quote from the 2005 war movie Jarhead: “A man fires a rifle for many years. Then he goes to war. And afterward, he turns the rifle in to the armory and believes he is finished with the rifle. But no matter what else he might do with his hands—love a woman, build a house, change his son’s diaper—his hands remember the rifle.”

In many ways, a soldier or cop never leaves active duty. Even if you’ve been discharged, retire, or leave voluntarily to pursue other ventures, you are always scanning your surroundings, overprotective of your loved ones, cynical, distrustful, and down-right commanding. It’s hard to go “back” to a world that you are not accustomed to or remember and we often attempt to control a home or lifestyle as if it were our stomping grounds when, in fact, it is not. You don’t have to suffer from post traumatic stress to experience or appreciate the casualties of training as a warrior and “being” a warrior. It comes with the territory, so understanding that the affects of our training and our time on the front lines can actually inhibit a healthy, loving lifestyle is the first step to advancing the knowledge that Kryptonite exists.

In the story of Superman (and I’m using this in the present tense), people often think that he comes to us from Krypton already “super” or that the green crystal placed into his spaceship (and for which helped to create his Kryptonian-like home on Earth) is the source of his power. Actually, it is our yellow sun that gives Superman his powers and our atmosphere on Earth sustains those powers. That’s why in the comics, cartoons, television and movies, you never saw Superman venturing too far into space. It wasn’t Lois Lane keeping the guy around! Like meteorites, pieces of his destroyed home planet fell to Earth and in the presence of these rocks his life is threatened. It’s not a matter of becoming like “one of us” now, but rather it is deadly because he is already an alien being forced into a pre-existing world or condition that he could never live in like he did before—almost like a genetic mutation.

Psychological and emotional casualties are only one part of the larger piece of Kryptonite. Taking up the mantle of “warrior” is difficult when the moral conditions we bring to the job crash against departmental politics, bureaucracies, and bad things experienced in the field or on the streets. The nature of the great superhero story comes from the internal conflicts that force personal growth and change. While Spider-Man once hung up his costume to try out a normal “life,” he found it back on him again with a renewed fervor once he fully understood his purpose and that all of the other stuff was just background noise.

How many times have we looked at our uniforms the same way? How often have we thought, “I’m done with this—it’s not worth it!”? On the other hand, how many times have we picked up a new uniform or cleaned our existing one—stained with the sins of society—only to wear it as a clean, fresh, and renewed symbol of justice and peace? Chances are we put it on with a new attitude and appreciation for what we do and realized that it is worth it. What really happened was a spiritual cleansing of sorts, where the burdens and weight of politics, society and the horrors of war were washed away and we were able to start anew. A death and resurrection.

Unfortunately, our resolve is not all the same and the typical human response to pain and suffering is to retaliate and react with the same. To strike back—harder! Thomas Merton once said, “Peace demands the most heroic labor and the most difficult sacrifice.” In other words, pacifism isn’t enough. We have to be peacemakers actively working for justice and we can’t do it with a uniform hanging behind a closed closet door. Such forward action, he said, is not to be confused with the quiet inertia that is indifferent to justice—that accepts disorder or compromises with evil.

Lastly, themes of retributive justice are predominant and carry the Kryptonite affects that force us to examine our own ethical boundaries. Typically noted as our “shadow side” in classical psychology, this conflicted, destructive nature that we all possess can remain unconscious so a warrior must realize that the shadow exists and draw strength from it through awareness. Only after coming to terms with our destructive powers are we sufficiently terrible enough to overcome the immoral, unethical, and illegal tendencies on the streets, in the field, and in our homes. In the 2008 film, The Dark Knight, Batman comes to understand the benefit of his existence by becoming what he felt Gotham City needed—a fall guy for cop killings. It is with this sound, moral decision behind a mask of justice that Batman becomes a true hero—a silent guardian and watchful protector. This seemingly clouded undertaking is indicative of the police and military culture and when a good warrior does something wrong, we feel the ripples across the globe. Warriors are often condemned for others’ mistakes and are then forced to accept themselves as heroes or tyrants. Like Batman, warriors push on—wounded and battered—because they can take it. They are made to take it. They move forward, knowing that they are often casted out because that’s what needs to happen. A moral objective such as sacrifice or saving lives is the morality of something. While we might judge, condemn, or criticize the nature of the deed, we should never destroy the heroism of what was done.

Warrior SOS
: Boys, in Western societies especially, have been told not to cry or to "suck it up" and "drive on" since youth! I'm aware, however, of some situations among law enforcement professionals who've witnessed or experienced some pretty horrific, life-altering experiences (crimes against children, partners being killed, et al). Additionally, with the stresses and horrors of war, one experienced warrior who's "been-there, done-that" wrote me from Afghanistan recently: "I miss the USA very much. I am doing well, but to be honest feeling a bit down. The tour has been much different that my other tour over here. Full of up and downs. It … has been a challenge … Just a lot of…misery."
Is crying okay?

Kinnaird: First of all, (and given your point about Western society) I thought it was quite brave and courageous for this man to let down his guard and feel comfortable enough to reach out to you in that way. Much has been written about warriorhood, some of which we are just now discovering yet the fact remains that we continue to separate our humanity with war and the atrocities of war. Between the ages of 4 and 6, boys and girls have the psychological capacity to understand and become aware of the boxes society puts them in---dolls, action figures, clothes, hairstyles, appropriate emotional responses to danger, sadness, pain, and happiness. As we grow older, we are socialized further by our friends, colleagues, media, politicians and family members who attempt to reaffirm who we “think” we are. This further clouds our humanity because who we are and how we have grown up doesn’t always mesh with our actual experiences (or the experiences of others). So to answer your question about crying—yes, it’s okay to cry. It’s actually unhealthy and inhuman not to!

As warriors we are trained in the military and law enforcement communities as robots (only with flesh and blood endoskeletons not unlike the science-fiction cyborgs created in the Terminator movies). I remember the last scene of the 1992 film Terminator 2 when Schwarzenegger’s character had to self-destruct by being lowered into a melting pot in order to destroy all cybernetic components that could be used against the human race in the future. Having developed a quasi-human relationship with the boy he protected, the boy cried and pleaded for The Terminator not to go. Touching the boy’s tears, he said, “I know now why your cry, but it is something I cannot do.” WE are not Terminators nor should we be coached or constructed in that manner.

A second point is that many of us are not ready for the horrific nature of the work in law enforcement and the military. No one at the academy or in my department ever told me or trained me that I would one day witness (and I’m being graphic here) the decimated head of a self-inflicted shotgun blast to the face, bruises and bite marks on a child’s back, a photo and video of a penis placed into the mouth of a 6 month-old baby by a pedophile. Furthermore, no one said that I would actually be in a fight and maybe lose or be fearful of losing. Age and experience has much to do with being able to deal with the emotions and atrocities that overwhelm us throughout the early parts of our career and combat. Research suggests that in WWII, the average age of the combat soldier was 26. In Vietnam it was 19. Think about putting your own child or grandchild into combat at that age. Many have barely lost their virginity! In other ways, atrocities are in our own backyard—cop and soldier suicide, working for people who know less, do less, and have experienced less, poor community relations, and people you work with who simply don’t like you! These psycho-social implications are captured throughout my book and lend a sense of continuity between the reality of being human while capturing the essence of being heroic in a less-than-heroic backdrop.

The last point I want to touch on is on the idea of “been there, done that.” It’s a fallacy in many ways. We’ve been there, but we’ve NOT done that. We will always go somewhere, but even if it’s another tour of duty (same place or another), another domestic disturbance call to the same house, it’s always new. The only thing that’s different is that we have a little more information than we did the first time around. This soldier’s second tour of duty was strikingly different than his first one and he said so specifically. Why? There are a couple of things happening: experience of the unknown and experience of the known. My first year in college and away from home was glorious. I got drunk, fooled around, skipped classes, stayed up late, and it was everything I thought it would be. I didn’t miss home and home was the antithesis of what I was now experiencing—and it felt good! After basically washing out of college, I moved back home for awhile to reconnect, get direction, and fix my sail. When I left again, I finished school successfully, got married, and I started a career and a family. But it was different this time and I missed home and appreciated it in a different way. This soldier ventured into the unknown during his first tour. While he excelled at what he did, it was new territory and he had to navigate it with a rightful gut-check—one that was not quite honed and skilled as the second. When he returned to the USA for awhile and went “back” he had more information this time. He understood how the world worked and that it didn’t quite bump up against what he thought it would be (or how it should be). His home country reinforced the moral protection and shield that he owned, but it wasn’t as strong or available over there. Why? Because we told him that he had what he needed from us so “Run along and play with the boys and I’ll call you when it’s dinner time.” The problem is that dinner isn’t fried chicken and mashed potatoes and the boys in the neighborhood are surprisingly bigger and stronger than you. From this point, you can either go sit under a tree or play, but you’ll have to face the spinach and broccoli at dinner. Regardless, there will be emotional fall-out and certain depression. It’s awareness that is important and, secondly, what you do with it.

Warrior SOS: We know there serious troubles can arise when warriors either a) don't recognize what's happened to them, e.g. to use your metaphor—exposed to Kryptonite, b) they won't admit they've been exposed to either work-related stress or PTS(D) (denial), or c) they refuse to get help because of the fear—which includes social stigma but also a personal admittance—that seeking professional help will in actuality reveal a sort of weakness. How does someone get help? Are there other options besides visiting a "Shrink"?

Kinnaird: A friend and colleague of mine, Dan Millman, wrote in his memoir The Way of the Peaceful Warrior, “The warrior is not about perfection, victory, or even invulnerability. It’s about absolute vulnerability—that’s true courage.” Once a person has self-actualized, it’s a matter of seeking the right direction—you can’t do it all on your own. Counseling is great—both privately or using an employee assistance program. “Shrinks” don’t give us the answers, they just help remove the roadblocks to our forward progress. Critical incident debriefing, accomplished through the help of administrators, EAPs, and professional colleagues, is an underused and misunderstood practice that yields wonderful results. It helps a person to come to terms with an event in a way that is psychologically acceptable. I don’t want someone to tell me it’s okay who, although empathic, has clearly not been in that position. It helps to soothe the immediate trauma.

Our modern times have revolted violently against religion and it’s time that we bring it back into our lives. Whether we are Christians, Muslims, Jews, or other participants of organized religion, the idea of submitting ourselves to something bigger than us (or other than us) has fallen by the wayside in favor of the scientific method. There must be a logical and rational explanation for every event and stimulus or response. Trust me, as a student and professor, 20th century applications of science have a choke-hold on today’s society. Where, then, does spirituality and organized religion come into play? It’s not my intent to push anything on anyone, but there is a quiet spur to action that I see coming on and this long withstanding benchmark of human excellence through spirituality is a historical communion and necessary component to managing the As, Bs, and Cs above. I’d also say that purchasing my book is good help!

Warrior SOS: Thank you so very much for your incredible insights. You've struck a chord with me, and certainly your words and responses here in this interview, as well as in your book, will touch the lives of others for good. In conclusion, do you have any last advice you'd like to share?

Kinnaird: Who are you? That answer lies with you—and only you—as you step out into the rain and open your umbrella for others to take shelter. It requires you to embrace a responsibility to seek out answers—to injustice and suffering—and to do so within a complex arena of relative morality, laws, politics, and values. This kind of self-awareness will make you lonely and anxious, but you will also be free to let go—to surrender to faith—and the answers will soon follow. Much like John the Baptist, who called people to recognize their roles in the problems of their world, we are all looking for someone who can help us to reveal who we are.

Evil is upon us and in the new chaos of our 21st century, we need our warriors (cops and soldiers) more than ever. We need hope and a spirit of heroism that cannot and will not falter. Don Juan Matus once said, "The spirit reveals itself to everyone with the same intensity and consistency, but only warriors are consistently attuned to such revelations." We need you—our superheroes—to save our world and light our darkest hour. With your new found powers of awareness and help (like the mission of Warrior SOS), you will lead us into greatness. Who knows, perhaps that help will reveal a red, white, and blue shield, repulsor-ready armor, the hammer of a Norse god, or a green beast dwelling within you!

"In brightest day, in blackest night,
No evil shall escape my sight.
Let those who worship evil's might,
Beware my power—Green Lantern's light!"

—The Green Lantern Oath

Warrior SOS: Dr. Brian Kinnaird, Thank you so very much for your great insights and for helping warriors everywhere!

Be sure to check out www.briankinnaird.com.


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